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Dundee
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This post in no way reflects on the owner or moderators of this Forum,
It is my thoughts only.
I am not condoning or endorsing the use of any drugs for any person other than myself and that which reflects my own choices.
Drugs can be really bad for you so "DON'T DO DRUGS"
That said.
I have spent my 57 years on earth in the search for a reason for us being here.
It seems to me that if you look at (with my limited understanding) medicine, science, biology, and pretty much everything.
All (most) things seem to have a reason for existing. There appears to be a balance.
Electrons exist so they can create a balance between protons and neutrons.
Look at the miracle of child birth. What an incredible series of events between conception to birth. What an amazing balance of miracles.
Like so many, every day I wonder why, and how all of this is as it is.
We in the western world like to think of ourselves as being on top of the evolutionary tree.
We look at less technologically advanced cultures with the perceived superior eyes of analysis and amusement.
But I wonder?
In my life I have done many things, good and bad. I remember a conversation I had once with a... Guru??
She talked about the process of rebirth.
She told me that many cultures such as Buddhist don't understand the western fear of death.
She explained that to her and others like her, it just was as silly as fearing grey hair.
She said when you have an understanding of the continuations of the rebirth cycle, that it is all part of reality, why should we be scared.
Dada also said, this is what is wrong with the narrow views of western culture.
Westerners are born, and live greedily for 50 years, accumulating wealth and things, in a race for stuff...
Not caring for those that come after becasue we think, well I will be dead soon so not my problem.
So western culture is happy to destroy the environment, the planet in their narrow minded quest for (perceived) wealth with little or no care for the future of our planet.
Dada explained to me that a person who's faith believes in rebirth, or re-incarceration well the notion of destroying the environment is silly, because in their belief, they will be reborn. It is as silly as burning your house down Saturday in anger, not caring that you ill need to sleep in it again Sunday, and Monday and on wards for rebirths to come.
For some, existence is a continuous cycle that needs to be nurtured until a final goal called (for some) Nirvana.
I have said elsewhere about some crazy stuff that I have experienced.
This will likely make no sense to you but I will do my best.
My youngest memories (I am 57) take me to a house out the Australian bush as a 5 or 6 year old.
I remember knowing something, something really really important.
But, now I have forgotten what it is.
I feel it lurking on the edge of perception every day since I was little.
My intuition tells me it is an awareness of what came before I was born.
There are certain triggers that escalate the feeling to an uncomfortable place.
I know that when I was privileged to be present at the birth of three of my four sons, the feeling was overwhelming.
I felt utterly connected to what I had forgotten even though I could not remember what it was.
Sadly I was not present for the passing of my Dad. I regret I was not there to comfort him and see him to a better place.
But I was privileged to be there for my Mum's passing.
She died quietly in a hospital bed with my two sisters and myself with her.
In the moments after she passed I looked to the roof of the hospital room, hoping mum was looking down on me as her spirit left her body.
In tears I said,. "I love you Mum"
Call bullshit if you want, I dont care.
But at that moment I saw a faint rainbow from my mum on the bed up into the air.
I cried with joy because I knew she was in a peaceful place now.
I felt at that moment so close to what I have forgotten.
It was a surreal moment. But as close as I felt I still could not trigger the memory.
It is no secret that I have in years past had more than my share of drugs.
My kids, my family know (some) of my past.
However.
DMT seems different. They call it the spirit Molecule.
I wont try to explain it, the video and any cursory google search will do that far better tan I can.
But it seems to me that this might hold the answer to what I have looked for for 50 odd years.
The difficulty is, how do I go down that road.
I know a bartender (well ) who will sell me chemist created, pure DMT, but, my hesitation is this.
By all accounts (this will make sense if you watch the video) they get pissed off at you for this as you have taken a shortcut.
He told me the experience was profound and life changing, but not without trepidation due to the angst he felt from her on the other side.
So it seems as with many native cultures around the world, the correct choice is ahauyaska.
However, I don't know about you, but when I walk out my back door, there is a distinct lack of shaman's both to brew the mixture correctly, and keep me safe on the journey. Chemist produced DMT is rapid onset, and short duration. Although that 5 to 15 mins sometimes for you feels like a lifetime,
Ahauyaska however can take many hours, and takes you slowly through your own death, and beyond, eventually to a better place before you meet the others.
This is not something to be taken lightly or to do on your own. By all accounts it can be nothing short of terrifying without guidance.
You need a Shaman to guide you, and that is not just some new age headband wearing hippy.
You need a true spiritual leader.
I have here the knowledge to make ahauyaska but I am am not confident enough to try,
You can imagine the reception of you were to walk into a pub and yell out, hey whose selling drugs, I want some.
People would rightly think you are an idiot.
So as a divorcee with all friends gone.
My social network is non existent, as is my friends.
So I still look in the hope to find a Shaman I can trust, to help me connect to what I have forgotten.
I hope one day the universe will look after me and it will happen.
Watch the video if you have the time.
It will fill the gaps of what I failed to explain.
It is my thoughts only.
I am not condoning or endorsing the use of any drugs for any person other than myself and that which reflects my own choices.
Drugs can be really bad for you so "DON'T DO DRUGS"
That said.
I have spent my 57 years on earth in the search for a reason for us being here.
It seems to me that if you look at (with my limited understanding) medicine, science, biology, and pretty much everything.
All (most) things seem to have a reason for existing. There appears to be a balance.
Electrons exist so they can create a balance between protons and neutrons.
Look at the miracle of child birth. What an incredible series of events between conception to birth. What an amazing balance of miracles.
Like so many, every day I wonder why, and how all of this is as it is.
We in the western world like to think of ourselves as being on top of the evolutionary tree.
We look at less technologically advanced cultures with the perceived superior eyes of analysis and amusement.
But I wonder?
In my life I have done many things, good and bad. I remember a conversation I had once with a... Guru??
She talked about the process of rebirth.
She told me that many cultures such as Buddhist don't understand the western fear of death.
She explained that to her and others like her, it just was as silly as fearing grey hair.
She said when you have an understanding of the continuations of the rebirth cycle, that it is all part of reality, why should we be scared.
Dada also said, this is what is wrong with the narrow views of western culture.
Westerners are born, and live greedily for 50 years, accumulating wealth and things, in a race for stuff...
Not caring for those that come after becasue we think, well I will be dead soon so not my problem.
So western culture is happy to destroy the environment, the planet in their narrow minded quest for (perceived) wealth with little or no care for the future of our planet.
Dada explained to me that a person who's faith believes in rebirth, or re-incarceration well the notion of destroying the environment is silly, because in their belief, they will be reborn. It is as silly as burning your house down Saturday in anger, not caring that you ill need to sleep in it again Sunday, and Monday and on wards for rebirths to come.
For some, existence is a continuous cycle that needs to be nurtured until a final goal called (for some) Nirvana.
I have said elsewhere about some crazy stuff that I have experienced.
This will likely make no sense to you but I will do my best.
My youngest memories (I am 57) take me to a house out the Australian bush as a 5 or 6 year old.
I remember knowing something, something really really important.
But, now I have forgotten what it is.
I feel it lurking on the edge of perception every day since I was little.
My intuition tells me it is an awareness of what came before I was born.
There are certain triggers that escalate the feeling to an uncomfortable place.
I know that when I was privileged to be present at the birth of three of my four sons, the feeling was overwhelming.
I felt utterly connected to what I had forgotten even though I could not remember what it was.
Sadly I was not present for the passing of my Dad. I regret I was not there to comfort him and see him to a better place.
But I was privileged to be there for my Mum's passing.
She died quietly in a hospital bed with my two sisters and myself with her.
In the moments after she passed I looked to the roof of the hospital room, hoping mum was looking down on me as her spirit left her body.
In tears I said,. "I love you Mum"
Call bullshit if you want, I dont care.
But at that moment I saw a faint rainbow from my mum on the bed up into the air.
I cried with joy because I knew she was in a peaceful place now.
I felt at that moment so close to what I have forgotten.
It was a surreal moment. But as close as I felt I still could not trigger the memory.
It is no secret that I have in years past had more than my share of drugs.
My kids, my family know (some) of my past.
However.
DMT seems different. They call it the spirit Molecule.
I wont try to explain it, the video and any cursory google search will do that far better tan I can.
But it seems to me that this might hold the answer to what I have looked for for 50 odd years.
The difficulty is, how do I go down that road.
I know a bartender (well ) who will sell me chemist created, pure DMT, but, my hesitation is this.
By all accounts (this will make sense if you watch the video) they get pissed off at you for this as you have taken a shortcut.
He told me the experience was profound and life changing, but not without trepidation due to the angst he felt from her on the other side.
So it seems as with many native cultures around the world, the correct choice is ahauyaska.
However, I don't know about you, but when I walk out my back door, there is a distinct lack of shaman's both to brew the mixture correctly, and keep me safe on the journey. Chemist produced DMT is rapid onset, and short duration. Although that 5 to 15 mins sometimes for you feels like a lifetime,
Ahauyaska however can take many hours, and takes you slowly through your own death, and beyond, eventually to a better place before you meet the others.
This is not something to be taken lightly or to do on your own. By all accounts it can be nothing short of terrifying without guidance.
You need a Shaman to guide you, and that is not just some new age headband wearing hippy.
You need a true spiritual leader.
I have here the knowledge to make ahauyaska but I am am not confident enough to try,
You can imagine the reception of you were to walk into a pub and yell out, hey whose selling drugs, I want some.
People would rightly think you are an idiot.
So as a divorcee with all friends gone.
My social network is non existent, as is my friends.
So I still look in the hope to find a Shaman I can trust, to help me connect to what I have forgotten.
I hope one day the universe will look after me and it will happen.
Watch the video if you have the time.
It will fill the gaps of what I failed to explain.